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it is 11:53 pm. i am wide awake and totally bored. we just came home from watching 24 at a friends house and dave is on the phone with matt who is CA. so i decided to write a totally random blog about nothing in particular. i am 4 days away from my due date. i had a dr.'s appt. today, but there's nothing to report. i don't feel any closer to giving birth than i did 5 months ago. i feel like labor is this elusive thing that i will never get too. it's almost like i'm resigned to never having this baby get out. i'm so used to being big (although the extra weight is taking its toll on my body), and so used to feeling things moving around inside, that it seems it will never be different. we've been waiting around for weeks now...everything is ready, we're just maintaining our lives now. washing dishes, grocery shopping, making dinner, doing the laundry, cleaning up the house, it's the same thing over and over. no baby.
i can't decide what to do now. there are a few things i could do to tire myself out enough to sleep. i could wash the bath mat from the tub and scrub down the tub (it needs a good cleaning!), i could pack more stuff in my hospital bag, i could wash the dinner dishes, sweep and mop the kitchen floor, watch one of the movies we got out from the library, catch up on some ironing...i think i am trying to nest. which i've done a million times already. i'm tired of nesting. they always say that alot of women get nesting cravings just before they go into labor. well i've had nesting cravings for the past month and nothing's come of it. i'm going to go clean. i'll let you know how it all ends up. good night!