7 months ago arianna beth was born. we didn't know if we were having a boy or a girl, and i had had an uneventful pregnancy. the morning after ari was born, we found out that she had a significant heart murmer and the drs. wanted to take some tests. they said it would probably be nothing and that she would grow out of it. they were wrong. they came back and said that she had such a severe heart defect that she needed open heart surgery within the week in order to save her life. if they didn't, her lungs would fill up with fluid and she would die. they were taking her to a hospital an hour and a half away and they were leaving within an hour. we were stunned. nothing could have prepared us for the hardest journey of our lives.
when arianna was 5 days old, she underwent major open heart surgery to repair her heart. she had hemitruncus. her right pulmonary artery was coming off of her aorta instead of her main pulmonary artery. it is such a rare defect that few surgeons ever get to operate on one in their lifetime. ari's surgeon had done one other surgery that was exactly the same thing. he knew precisely what to do and was very confident in the outcome. we sensed that God had led us to this particular surgeon. they would have to use some cadaver tissue to rebuild the artery walls. someone had to die for arianna.
the surgery lasted for hours. it was not as hard as we thought. we had counted 13 churches that we knew of that were praying for us. and we felt it. in our lowest moments, when we could not make it through another day, we felt our spirits lifted the next morning and knew we were being lifted up. this was how the body of Christ was supposed to work. when the surgeon came out and told us it went as well as he expected, we were relieved and thrilled. but ari still had to recover and start eating again. they hadn't fed her for a week. i had been pumping every three hours during that time. i feared that the stress would overtake my body and my milk would dry up. my friends prayed that i would be able to nurse ari. i kept pumping, and when ari was able to start eating from a bottle, i had stored enough for her. when she finally was able to come home, she started nursing. my milk did not dry up, even when the odds were stacked up against me. the Lord preserved my body.
ari left the hospital 3 weeks after she was admitted, on Good Friday. she was on several medicines that she had to take several times a day to keep her heart working the right way. we had restrictions on how we had to hold her and were told how to check her heartbeat with a stethoscope before we gave her the medicines. she was on a supplemental calcium because her calcium levels were too high. eventually they figured out it was from the blood transfusion that she had. they said we could rub vitamin e oil on her scar to minimize it as much as possible. it runs right down the center of her chest, and we wonder if she will be embarrassed about it as she grows up.
7 months later, we went to her cardiologist appointment. he did an echo-cardiogram and told us that her heart looked excellent. that it was better than expected and it was growing with her body. he told us that she doesn't need any medicines anymore and that we didn't need to come back for another 6 months. she has no restrictions because of her heart since it is fully healed. we also found out her calcium is back to normal and we don't need anymore medicine for that either. her scar has healed up better than we had hoped. she is still nursing and is growing exactly the way she should be.
our little baby girl is a miracle. and we are SO thankful to the body of Christ for prayer and love. it is hard to believe that such a rare problem could be fixed so easily and now, only 7 months later, she is as good as new. i wanted to share this with you because it has been so evident to us that God has chosen to afflict and heal. and because of that we can rejoice and be a testimony of God's deliverence.
25 October 2007
04 October 2007
15 September 2007
glimpses of this week
dave's brother, jon, came to visit us this past week. he lives in columbia city, IN. he flew in last saturday and stayed until wednesday. it was a fun time! dave was able to take some much needed days off of work and relaxed with jon. ari has been eating solid food for about a month now and really likes it! we gave her carrots this week and she made a mess of it, but ate them up! so far she likes her veggies more than her fruits. strange kid...but i'm thankful! enjoy the pictures of our week.
ari eating her carrots
ari chewing on her foot
ari and uncle jon
ari looking adorable
unknown flowers i picked from our yard
our family
ari and daddy
ari and daddy 2
ari and daddy 3
uncle jon making monkey faces at ari
ari and uncle jon
31 August 2007
Country Club of Scranton
today, ari and i had the opportunity to go visit dave at work. as the title says, he works at the country club of scranton. a club where old, rich, cranky people go to waste away their days (david's take on his job).
he was very happy to have the welcome break to see us. we took ari out on one of the greens to get her picture in the grass (or lack of it!). the grass on the green is so short it's like sandpaper. soft sandpaper. it's the weirdest grass i've ever been on. ari was trying to grab it but she couldn't because there's nothing to grab! it was cute. anyway, here are the pictures from the day.
27 August 2007
Chocolate Party!!!
friday night was a much needed break from life. my friend janet hosted a chocolate party at her house. her 2 older sisters, julie and joanna, came and they each brought a friend, kim and jen. then there was me and ari, and our other friend from church, jenean. we were going to watch Chocolat and have lots of chocolate desserts. but first, we had a swap. we all brought items from our house that we no longer wanted and we drew numbers and took turns taking whatever we wanted. i got a few 'new' shirts and some jewelry. it was a great idea! we ended up not watching the movie because we all decided it would be more fun to play a game. so we gathered out on the screened in porch (where it was cooler) and played a fun game of Imaginif. julie won. it was a good game since most of us didn't know everyone else very well. we laughed alot! i am so glad for girl friends! ari doesn't really count as girl time. so it was very refreshing to be around fun-loving girls! i leave with some pictures. of course, i forgot to take a picture of the dessert table. kim brought a chocolate fountain. yum!! sorry i can't make you jealous. you'll have to imagine the river of liquid chocolate cascading down the tower into a pool of warm goodness.
joanna holding ari. jo was the one who took all the pictures of ari when she was born and when she was at the hospital. if you click on the link 'my pictures', you'll go to my photobucket where you can view them.
julie hiding behind her cards, trying not to give away any answers.
kim holding ari
jenean holding a sleeping ari
19 August 2007
Sunday night
it is sunday night...or rather monday morning. 1 a.m. and i am still awake. i'm starting to get tired, but not enough to fall asleep. so i thought i'd give an update on ari. she is sleeping in her big crib now! this is the second night there which translates into the second night since she's been home that dave and i have had the bedroom to ourselves again. she has been sleeping in a little crib, the size of a bassinet, in our room. this has been very convenient for me, since she wakes up around 5 or 6 a.m. to eat. but, she is starting to outgrow it, and i have started to teach her to be able to fall asleep on her own. without me nursing her or rocking her. it is hard. i am not a fan of the "cry it out method" of putting babies to sleep. i just don't see the benefit it has on the child. she needs comfort and soothing reassurance that mom and dad are here and she really IS ok. but she does cry and it is difficult for me listening to her. i tried it for the first time on friday afternoon for her nap. she cried on and off (in between playing with her feet, which let me know she was ok, just not happy about it) for about 2 hours. i was home alone with her and had to call dave because it was so hard for me not to pick her up, which would totally defeat the purpose. so i distracted myself by cleaning things that hadn't been cleaned in several months. and guess what? she fell asleep and stayed asleep for a few hours. so for the last 2 nights, i have been putting her to bed and letting her cry, going in every few minutes to rub her back, sing to her and fix the blankets. after a while, she's out. i am amazed. i now have ALOT more free time. i had been holding her for hours when she had a hard time sleeping and consequently stayed up very late at night. i love holding her, don't get me wrong. but she's getting heavier (almost 13 lbs.) and my arms get tired. and i knew the time would come when she would need to learn to sleep on her own. i decided i'd rather deal with the crying now, than when she got older and probably harder to handle. so my life is changing a little with that. for 5 months, every time she went to sleep, i have held her. so this is a very new experience for me, and i'm not used to it yet. i think i like it. it's just hard on my emotions hearing her cry and seeing her eyes look at me, tears running down her cheeks and a look that is so pitiful, begging me to hold her and comfort her. i am so attached to her. it's amazing how much you can love your own child. i never knew how much in love i'd be with her. i'm smitten. she's MY little girl. it's so so hard to know i'm hurting her feelings by not comforting her the way she wants to be. i had to have dave reassure me (even though i knew the truth) that she would not remember that i didn't hold her and didn't comfort her how she wanted. of course she won't remember. but the way she cries and the way she looks at me, you'd wonder how she could forget!
anyway, i thought i'd post a few pictures from tonight to end my post. enjoy!
dave and ari watching stupidvideos.com
ari asleep in her big crib tonight
dave asleep as i write this post.
15 August 2007
videos
ok, so i posted some videos using blogger's new video bar. they are on the right sidebar, you just have to scroll down a little. click on one and then scroll back up to the top where it will play. sorry about the repeats. blogger automatically puts 4 on at a time, and i couldn't switch them out. anyway, enjoy! leave me comments and let me know how you like them!
06 August 2007
ok. so i'm getting requests for new pictures and updates, and i have to admit, it is about time. right now, ari is sleeping in her swing and dave is napping on the couch. i am sick with a bad cold and feel pretty miserable. i'm trying my best to keep ari from getting it, so i'm sanitizing my hands with purell every time i blow my nose, which is like every 5 min. dave never gets sick, so i doubt this will faze him. he has tomorrow off and i am very thankful. every tuesday since may he has worked open to close, which translates into 6 am-9pm. there is a weekly tournament and he usually has to be there. but not very many people are playing tomorrow so he decided to have that day as his day off (since he makes the schedule, it's pretty easy to work these things out). i am so glad that he will be home to help me with ari. she was good today and took a 3 hr. nap with me before dave came home. so here are some pictures from a few weeks ago. my best friend and her hubby came out for TLC at BBC with some kids from their youth group. they live near chicago and we only get to see them a few times a year, if that. ash took all this pics, except for the one where she's holding ari. i took that one. we were at perkins having a late night snack. i miss you ash!

ash holding arianna

ari discovering grass for the first time

playing in the grass

laying in the hammock and holding her up
ash holding arianna
ari discovering grass for the first time
playing in the grass
laying in the hammock and holding her up
26 July 2007
1:42 am....i am awake, in a quiet house. my husband and my daughter have been sleeping for hours. i should want to go to bed. i should be tired. i had a long day. a great day. i find it strange that i have been avoiding ending the day for 2 hrs. now. why don't i want it?
this is how i find myself almost every night. dave goes to bed around 10:30 because he has to work early in the morning. ari goes to bed around 11 and after i lay her asleep in her crib, i shut the door and breath a sigh of relief that i can have as much time to myself as i want. maybe that's it. maybe i crave that uninterrupted time so badly, that i am willing to risk my sleep for it. i procrastinate until the wee hours of the morning, knowing i should be responsible and get to bed, but fighting my tiredness for a few more minutes. i lack the discipline to just get up and go. i don't want to be tired. i want to stay up. i want to play stupid games on the computer, or watch shows online while i crochet. it's my refuge. it's too late to do any cleaning. i'll wake them up. it's like i don't have to feel guilty that i'm not doing housework, but i can lounge around instead. until the nagging voice in my head gets the best of me and i give in. unwilling, but i listen.
i'm a new mother...shouldn't i be dying to get as much sleep as possible? is something wrong with me? does anyone have any thoughts on my strange behavior? should i not let it bother me, or should i set better bounderies for myself? i function well throughout the day. mainly because i sleep in until 10 with ari. i don't have to take naps and i get alot done when i'm not holding her. so is this really a problem? what do you think?
this is how i find myself almost every night. dave goes to bed around 10:30 because he has to work early in the morning. ari goes to bed around 11 and after i lay her asleep in her crib, i shut the door and breath a sigh of relief that i can have as much time to myself as i want. maybe that's it. maybe i crave that uninterrupted time so badly, that i am willing to risk my sleep for it. i procrastinate until the wee hours of the morning, knowing i should be responsible and get to bed, but fighting my tiredness for a few more minutes. i lack the discipline to just get up and go. i don't want to be tired. i want to stay up. i want to play stupid games on the computer, or watch shows online while i crochet. it's my refuge. it's too late to do any cleaning. i'll wake them up. it's like i don't have to feel guilty that i'm not doing housework, but i can lounge around instead. until the nagging voice in my head gets the best of me and i give in. unwilling, but i listen.
i'm a new mother...shouldn't i be dying to get as much sleep as possible? is something wrong with me? does anyone have any thoughts on my strange behavior? should i not let it bother me, or should i set better bounderies for myself? i function well throughout the day. mainly because i sleep in until 10 with ari. i don't have to take naps and i get alot done when i'm not holding her. so is this really a problem? what do you think?
23 July 2007
Video 2
i forgot to tell you where the video was! it's on the right sidebar, scroll down a little and you'll see it. sorry about that! it was late when i put it up...
22 July 2007
Video
i figured out how to put a video on blogger since they have a new video bar. the downside is that there has to be 4 videos and only 1 of them is the one i want. so if you click on the 3rd one down, you can watch a video of ari at 4 months old, as she is learning how to talk! enjoy!
13 July 2007
4 months old
Last night my dad came over with his camera, so we finally got new pictures! here he is with his granddaughter
isn't she cute?
look at my new slippers!! they have butterflies on them
look how good i can hold my head up!
ari and daddy
ari and mommy. like my new haircut? i got 10" off!
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